Wednesday, 22 January 2014

Your name

Its silly really
But I look for your name

With sieve in hand my mind looks for that name
One
By 
One 
The names fall through the cracks
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But you are not there

I search to find you with my hand
My eyes carrying the lamp's head
Heart fueled
eagerly watching
waiting
For your name to strike that match

I look for your name
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Your name.
To ignite me, 
Let the fire of your name spread through my bones
Let every syllable tug at my soul to untie the bonds of familiarity 
Let the flames fueled by my heart consume all traces of you
Let every alphabet's ashes surrender to the gentle winds of yesturday
Pray my tomorrows be rid of you


I look for your name 
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To set me free


Candy Morrow

Sometimes, only sometimes.... I wish I had the answers I seek.

15 comments:

  1. Full of passion & angst ~ I would like to believe its our own choice at the end that matters ~ Good to see you D'verse ~

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  2. very nice candy....i feel the angst and even desperation in seeking them...in hoping to find a name...a clue they were there....the mixed emotions as well of wanting to find and maybe be rid of them....its a bit haunting...

    havent seen you in a while. how is your year starting?

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  3. Yes Heaven, that is true.. The choice is ultimately ours and it hurts even more because it is so.

    Hello Brian
    As you know I lost my brother in the last quarter of 2013, my whole life changed. Grief struck but I held on, having a God to believe listens to my heart speak was my cornerstone.

    This is my 1st attempt at writing since his passing. My heart wouldn't speak. I'm hoping you will see more of me now that the ice has been broken. I missed the Bar.

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    1. I'm sorry to hear that ~ My deepest condolences ~

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  4. I shouldn't repeat angst... but I felt that as well.. and reading the background in comments made it all the more sad.. and to be free from the chains of loss... glad to see you back...

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  5. glad to see you back as well candy and so sorry to hear about your loss...that adds another dimension to your poem as well... a name always means identity and that's even more important when we go through rough times...

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  6. Candy, so sad to hear about your brother. My condolences to you too. I also see the angst in this poem, the searching for the name but knowing it is not there. This poem has a depth to it that reflects so much!

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  7. Hi Candy - I don't think we've 'met'. This poem reached out to me... and then I read your comments - I lost my beautiful dad in the third quarter of 2013 - too soon, too suddenly, too cruelly. So looking for that name, dealing with that grief - I get. You write beautifully - thank you for sharing this with us.

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    1. Its always too soon, too cruel. Undignified loss is always hard to deal with. I will pray for you too.

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  8. I look for your name...

    The repetition of this line...it lingers...somber piece.

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  9. I thank you all in a special wsy, may you be blessed tenfold in return for your kindness.

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  10. I am so sorry to hear what you've been through this past year. Glad to see you writing and purging your emotion here. My prayers are with you and your family.

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    1. Oh Linda, some days its battle. But I'm learning to live, sorry to hear about your brother too.

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  11. I am so sorry for your loss. So hard.

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